But who am I writing all this for?
Nobody knows this world of me?
for who?

I guess just myself...its another failed attempt of trying to be what I once was.

So I check my blog after ages...felt like meeting someone I once knew. An old friend, relative...
Not realizing it was me...a ME I have forgotten...
and perhaps can never be again.

Like a caterpillar who is desperate to be a butterfly, a beautiful delicate butterfly.
And once it has become. longs to be the caterpillar it was.
Why?
Because it realizes that the butterfly might be beautiful but can never be as care-free as it was. can never be as innocent as it was.
Freedom and innocence once gone can never come again.
The same way I can not be myself again

REINCARNATION

Reincarnated.

I have been born again, feels like it. A part of me that I forgot due to my carelessness, A part that I lost in time unalterable now. Something that I don't have my power upon, something I can not tame, something I can not control;
TIME
kills you, and makes you.

Two and half a years
Over 956 days
22944 hours
1376640 hours
82598400 seconds
and countless moments...
LOST.

Where was I?
LOST.


Now, I found a part of me, that makes me feel I have been reincarnated.
But I know better than anyone else the result of all such temporary reincarnations...

"Reincarnated...just to die again"